All in Two Abortions

“I do not regret it. I will be eternally and wrongly judged a slut and murderer in my country, however the guy who raped me is out there raping others. With my second abortion, I never took a pregnancy test, I just aborted without having proof that I was and I don't care, I don't care. It’s love for myself, and my neighbor. I will not bring children to suffer in this dire world.” Read more.

“Cuando mi hija tenía 2 años, volví a quedar embarazada. Le dije a mi madre de inmediato. Mi madre me ayudó. Así que todo volvió a la normalidad. Sentí un gran alivio. Pasaron unos años y en 2016 volví a enfrentarme a esta situación con mi actual novio. Había cambiado el anticonceptivo y el otro todavía no estaba funcionando, creo. Para mí fue el mismo sentimiento de hace cuatro años. Me asusté por completo, pensando Dios mío, mi universidad, mis planes, mi situación financiera en esta crisis. No perdí el tiempo ". Lee mas.

“When my daughter was 2 years old, I got pregnant again. I told my mother right away. My mother helped me. So everything went back to normal. I felt a great relief. A few years passed and in 2016 I faced this situation again with my current boyfriend. I had changed the contraceptive and the other one was not working yet, I think. For me it was the same feeling of four years ago. I totally freaked out, thinking My God — my college, my plans, my financial situation in this crisis. I didn't waste time.” Read more

.“Quando minha filha tinha 2 anos, engravidei novamente. Eu disse a minha mãe imediatamente. Minha mãe me ajudou. Então tudo voltou ao normal. Senti um grande alívio. Alguns anos se passaram e em 2016 enfrentei essa situação novamente com meu atual namorado. Eu havia trocado o anticoncepcional e o outro ainda não estava funcionando, acho. Para mim foi a mesma sensação de quatro anos atrás. Eu surtei totalmente, pensando Meu Deus - minha faculdade, meus planos, minha situação financeira nesta crise. Não perdi tempo.”

“I slept peacefully all night after the abortion happened. The next day a friend came to my house and we went for a walk and distracted ourselves and I didn't feel any pain! Super quiet and fast. The trauma is not the procedure, it is the stress of the moment you discover the pregnancy and when starting the abortion. Then, I found out that I am pregnant again. 3 years later.” Read more.

“Probably if I were posting this post at the time I started writing it, I would have added that I would never do it again. As it turned out in the meantime, although I was always a woman with great temperament, my fiancé sometimes liked to call whores. To make matters worse, he impregnated me again in the first cycle after the abortion. This time I didn't hesitate for a moment. After the second procedure, the biggest pain for me was that I was not able to sacrifice any tears. If you are hesitating, wondering what to do, remember that it is YOUR life and the decision is yours.” Read more.

“At the time, I suffered a lot of trauma from being bullied, therefore I searched for attention in male companionship, as some of us do. I allowed myself to give into his manipulation, which eventually led me to becoming pregnant because I trusted myself with him. I knew I could not keep the child, because if I had, it would have suffered. Two months after that abortion, I confided in a male best friend of three years. He lured me into his garage, which led to myself being raped.” Read more.

“Abortion hasn’t been at all what I feared about it before experiencing it. Abortion is probably one of the most misconceived things in the world and this misconception impacts women and their physical and mental health, for no reason. For one thing, pregnancy made me realize I’d be ready for it when the right time comes. It removed the fear of pregnancy I had once. And abortion allowed me to decide that this year wasn’t the right time for me. Both times.” Read more.

“Mi conclusión fue que probablemente jamás querría ser mamá, me preocupó el hecho de que esto decepcione a mi familia (todos mis hermanos y hermanas ya tienen hijos), pero la verdad es que yo no quiero.” Lee mas.

“My conclusion was that I would probably never want to be a mom, I was concerned about the fact that this disappoints my family (all my brothers and sisters already have children), but the truth is that I do not want to.” Read more.

“Negué el aborto con pastillas pero la ginecóloga encontró restos dentro mío así que ahí entendió todo. Me ayudó, me aconsejó y pude terminar de realizarlo sin problemas. Todo "fuera de ley" pero fue posible. “ ~~ Lee mas.

“I denied abortion with pills, but the gynecologist found remains inside me, so she understood everything. She helped me, advised me and I was able to finish doing it without problems. Everything "out of law" but it was possible.” Read more.

“My period was a week late and I truly thought it was just stress. My boyfriend and I had been EXTREMELY careful, except one night. I took Plan B within an hour of having unprotected sex. We broke up two weeks after that night, and another two weeks later I found out I was pregnant. I really struggled with the decision since I had already had an abortion. The women at the clinic were extremely understanding and explained that some women are incredibly fertile and it isn't uncommon for situations like mine.” Read more.

“The most difficult issue with it is that you fall into this section where you barely have rights. You do have access to abortions and you can go get one, but nobody is going to support you, and if something goes wrong, you won’t get justice. Herein lies the crux of a lot of bad memories people associate with abortions. They don’t necessarily stem from the abortion procedure itself but instead arise from the impossible difficulties society has lined up for those seeking to exercise their reproductive rights." Read more.

“She took great precautions not to let me make any noise by putting a rag in my mouth and asking me to bite on it when it hurt. I left that place with the conviction that I was never going to have sex again. I was worried because I continued getting morning sickness despite the ordeal I had gone through. Someone else took me for a secret check-up, which proved I was still pregnant. I was lucky I was taken to a real doctor this time, who finished the job on another kitchen table.” Read more.

“Estoy segura que no quiero tener hijos pronto y por eso usaba esos anticonceptivos, pero no sé si fue mala suerte o si hago algo mal o qué.” Lee mas.

“I'm sure I don't want to have children soon and that's why I used those contraceptives, but I don't know if it was bad luck or if I do something wrong or what.” Read more.

“My second abortion was a procedural abortion. I remember drifting off to sleep in the feet-holders, and then waking up once it was over. I didn’t feel any of it. The clinic staff gave me soda to drink and let me rest for a bit. I remember walking out of the clinic and into the sunshine, feeling elated and relieved once more. I felt overwhelmingly free. It was beautiful.” Read more.