"I miss them. In a nutshell, that's it. I miss them like crazy."

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What were your feelings? Grieving, comfortable, confident, angry, sad.

I miss them. In a nutshell, that's it. I miss them like crazy. I know what I did was right, but I still think about things a lot, like --> my children would be 4 this year.

The next strongest feeling I have is that I get angry at other people out there who SEEM to be able to just go out and have their babies, and even more angry at the ones that aren't doing the best job they can. I mean if you're going to make that choice, stand by it.

All of our choices are for the rest of our lives when we're dealing with our children. I know I made the right choice for me at the time, but that's just me. I know I am very blessed. My husband and I were married on our 3 year anniversary — 2-3 years after the abortions — and I know that most couples don't make it and I'm very blessed to have such a strong relationship. Blessed Be to all visitors of this site.

How did you do the abortion? in a clinic or hospital with surgery.

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For the first abortion I was awake and I remember that my foot felt as though it would fall from the sling around my ankle at any minute. I was very afraid that I would knock my doctor in some way during the procedure.

The second, I was asleep for it and I don't remember the procedure part of it specifically.

In both cases the waiting rooms were small and quiet feeling, and leaving felt awkward. I was 20 years old.

What was your situation at this time? Financial issues, family size, mental health reasons.

I had just met my husband in the summer, and that fall I found out I was pregnant. It was far too early in our relationship. He has three children from a previous marriage. Neither of us could find work at the time, and I suffer from bipolar mood disorder and anxiety attacks. It was bad timing really.

How did other people react to your abortion? For the most part people were very supportive and understanding. I was expecting more people to react negatively and was very relieved to not have to deal with that in addition to my own thoughts and emotions at the time.

Do you have children? I have no children.

What is your religion? No religion.

~Dawn & Kevin

"I was in a very destructive situation and did not need to bring a child in to the mess that was my life."

"I could not be shamed into having a baby when I was still a child myself."