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I had my first child at 18 years old. I was an alcoholic soon after

I did my best with my child but eventually lost custody of him due to my addiction when he was a year old.

Shortly after, I found out I was pregnant again. I had been drinking for months and did not find out until I was 12 weeks along.

I decided not to have this baby because I knew I already couldn’t take care of my first. And I thought, due to the alcohol, the baby would not have a good start at life.

It was not an easy choice for me at the time but I did what I believed was right for myself and my son.

My addiction lasted for the next 8 years (I still had not regained custody of my son) and in that time, I got pregnant 4 more times.

I got 3 more abortions and went for one that they discovered had no heartbeat already.

I’ve gone to recovery and gotten sober since these experiences.

And I’ve had the privilege of having 2 amazing, perfect, healthy babies when I decided I was ready and when I knew I’d be able to be the perfect mom for them.

I do think often of what I’ve done in the past, but like the stories here read, if I hadn’t chosen those abortions these 2 beautiful children I have now wouldn’t be here with me today. And for that I am so SO thankful.