"Estoy bien, segura de mi decisión y en paz." -- "I am fine, sure of my decision and at peace."

This story is published at Focos. The English translation is included below.

Es la primera vez que hablaré de mis dos abortos. Del primero nadie sabe, porque fue hace ocho años, viví una agresión sexual por parte de un amigo y no fui a denunciar, pero acudí a una clínica "no oficial" o sea clandestina, era lo único que sabía que existía. Después me costó recuperarme anímicamente, del aborto no tuve problemas, aunque sí me quedé sin dinero y con deudas. Rehíce mi vida, estudié y ahora soy abogada. Tengo una relación estable pero no quiero tener hijos todavía y él siempre lo ha sabido. Durante cinco años usé dispositivo de cobre y a finales del año pasado lo cambié, pero algo pasó que me embaracé. Hoy las cosas son diferentes, porque sé que en la ciudad de México hay interrupción legal del embarazo y por eso fui, acompañada de mi pareja con la seguridad de que todo saldría bien. Estoy bien, segura de mi decisión y en paz, porque en esta segunda ocasión las circunstancias y la atención médica fueron diferentes.

English Translation:

It is the first time that I will discuss my two abortions. No one knows about the first, because it was eight years ago. I experienced a sexual assault by a friend and I did not go to report it, but I went to an "unofficial" or clandestine clinic. It was the only thing I knew existed. Later it was difficult for me to recover emotionally, I had no problems from the abortion, although I did run out of money and debt. Rebuild my life, I studied and now I am a lawyer. I have a stable relationship but I don't want to have children yet and he has always known this. For five years I used a copper device and at the end of last year I changed it, but something happened that got pregnant. Today things are different, because I know that in Mexico City there is a legal termination of pregnancy and that is why I went, accompanied by my partner with the certainty that everything would be fine. I am fine, sure of my decision and at peace, because on this second occasion the circumstances and the medical attention were different.

Because the only one who knows what is best for my life, is me.

Because the only one who knows what is best for my life, is me.

"I guess my approach to each of them has been totally different — my feelings and my reactions."

"We went to the doctor only to learn that a medication I take every day causes birth defects."