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I am currently 21 years old and 16 weeks pregnant, I just found out yesterday after having false periods the last few months.

This has been the most difficult decision I have ever had to make. I feel guilt, sadness, grief, relief all at once and unconditional love for this baby at the same time.

I didn’t think feeling all of these emotions at once was possible until now.

It has been so difficult for me to process everything, the kind words on this site have been helpful.

I know this is the right decision. I am still in university and do not have the capacity in any way to provide the life I dream of for this child, I cannot be the mother I want to be at this point in my life, yet I am still in so much pain.

I know one day I will heal and truly be at peace with my decision. This decision is my way of caring for the both of us.