"I marked both the children’s predicted birthdays and abortion dates on my calendar to remember their spirits."

This story, and the reader response that follows, can be found at Reddit.

I’ve had two abortions and I want kids.

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Both were voluntary and with different men. The first time, the guy talked me into it — we had only been dating for a short time. The second time, I talked the guy into it — we had been dating a while but he was broke and about to go to jail and already had a kid with another girl that they gave up for adoption.

I rarely regret my choices. I marked both the children’s predicted birthdays and abortion dates on my calendar to remember their spirits. And I want children SO BADLY. But I know I’m nowhere near ready for one.

Sometimes when I’m sad, I’ll think, “I could have a four year old” or the like. It hurts every day but not as badly as it would hurt to HAVE the baby and give it up. That’s why I didn’t choose adoption. If I thought I could handle handing my child over to a stranger, I would’ve done it. But there’s no way. I cried during both abortions and required a longer stay due to emotions. My doctor was sweet and helpful.

It’s not “murder.” I stand by that fact wholeheartedly. I love children. I want a family. I will tell my future children about my abortions — when they’re ready/old enough obviously) — and it’s not something I hide from the general public. I’m very open. Because I’m not ashamed.

But, to my two undoubtedly beautiful children, I love you. And I know you’ll find a family that is able to love you back the way you deserve. ♥️

A reader responds:

I had 2 abortions and went on to be a mother who conceived my child very intentionally. You will very likely get a family someday and you will be a better mother because of abortion, because you were able to plan your family when it was right.

I think we need to break the stigma that people who have abortions can't be parents or aren't good parents. Abortion made me a better parent and I will never regret it.

I hope a beautiful, happy family is in your future. Thanks for sharing <3

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