"I was so against abortion before this, but when it happens to you everything changes."

This story is published at My Abortion, My Life.

I am 24 years old and this is my story. I have been pregnant 3 times in my life and had 2 abortions.

I felt very young and dumb when it happened. I had no friends or family or mother and was very lonely. I had had only 1 boyfriend from 16-18 but he was physically abusive so I left him, but straight away went with the one that made it all happen.

I was relieved to be with someone I thought was good to me because he hadn’t hit me. Stupidly not being careful enough and thinking him pulling out would be good enough after about a month of dating, I got pregnant.

I was living out of home and didn't have any money and hadn't even met his parents yet. I was so against abortion before this, but when it happens to you everything changes.


He didn't want it so I made up my mind but felt as if i wasn’t really present. I went through it on my own and didn't tell anyone.

Then 9 months later after keeping it bottled inside and feeling horrible I felt worse than ever. I could have had a baby at this time. It hit me hard. And what does my boyfriend say to me — I wanted to have a baby anyway so lets.

So what happens, I get pregnant again and tell everyone but then he backs out. So I don't want to be a single mum so I have another one.

But then after all this we are still together and I get pregnant again but deep down I know he is not a good person to be having a baby with, but was so hurt by what I'd done that I was craving a baby.

So I had a beautiful little girl but then left him when she was 9-months old because she made me realize I don't want her around this toxic relationship.

She is 3 now and my world, but my god do I have the worse ex in history. I'm stuck to this evil horrible guy now.


"I wish I’d understood better that men will not look after you. You must do that yourself."

" I felt only intense relief both times."