"The problem is that I have a disease which will not allow me to take anything with hormones — no birth control pills or anything."

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I had two abortions in one year in the Netherlands.

What were your feelings about doing the abortion/s? Selfish, resolved, confused, ashamed, guilty, afraid, sad.

I feel guilty, but also not guilty, because I was responsible and did everything to avoid it. But I feel also very stupid because it happened twice. It makes me confused.

How did you do the abortion? In a clinic or hospital with surgery.

It was painful for a few minutes, but the doctor and nurse were really respectful and caring.

What was your situation at this time? I had financial issues, was getting my education, and my age was too young.

The problem is that I have a disease which will not allow me to take anything with hormones — no birth control pills or anything. I was always really responsible when having sex. Despite that I got pregnant twice. I'm a student, don't have a boyfriend, don't have my own place and don't have any money to take care of another person.

How did other people react to your abortion? I had a few friends who I told about the situation. They are really supportive and they really understand that having a baby wasn't an option.

Do you have children? I have no children.

What is your religion? No religion.

~Jo

"I was so relieved when the abortion was over and I wasn't pregnant any more!"

"I am a single mother and did not have the resources for children when pregnancies occurred."