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I had two abortions in one year in the Netherlands.
What were your feelings about doing the abortion/s? Selfish, resolved, confused, ashamed, guilty, afraid, sad.
I feel guilty, but also not guilty, because I was responsible and did everything to avoid it. But I feel also very stupid because it happened twice. It makes me confused.
How did you do the abortion? In a clinic or hospital with surgery.
It was painful for a few minutes, but the doctor and nurse were really respectful and caring.
What was your situation at this time? I had financial issues, was getting my education, and my age was too young.
The problem is that I have a disease which will not allow me to take anything with hormones — no birth control pills or anything. I was always really responsible when having sex. Despite that I got pregnant twice. I'm a student, don't have a boyfriend, don't have my own place and don't have any money to take care of another person.
How did other people react to your abortion? I had a few friends who I told about the situation. They are really supportive and they really understand that having a baby wasn't an option.
Do you have children? I have no children.
What is your religion? No religion.